Have you ever thought to yourself “Who am I” and “why am I here”? These questions really troubled me and I had pondered on them for a long time. I would be interested to hear what answers you have gotten as you pondered on these questions.
What I have gotten so far was “nobody”. For a while, it really bothered me. Every time when I meditated on this question, I got prolonged silence. Then I slowly realized my body is simply a collection of tiny molecules from the projection of our human minds, which can be perceived by our human eyes. It is something cannot be answered from two-dimensional perceptions. So like everything in this physical world. They are illusions or projections of our thoughts and minds. Our experiences occur based on karmic laws from our past lives.
It is easy for us to wake up in the morning and realize the dream we had at night was simply a dream. If I say our current lives in this physical world are a longer version of the dreams as well, most of you probably thought I must be crazy. The reason I say it is a longer version of the dreams is that we are in the dreams currently. We wouldn’t know it’s a dream until the day we say goodbye to this world. Maybe even at then, we still couldn’t wake up from the dreams.
But if our lives are dreams or dramas that we anticipate and they aren’t real. Will we still be so bothered by what happened to us? Most likely not. Wouldn’t we be happier? It is almost like a new moment is a new me without the memory of the past nor the influence of the past. So we are given a completely new opportunity.
Then why am I here? The ultimate goal of being here is to be awakened from this prolonged “dream”. Imagining this life is like a drama that we participate in a theater, there is a door which allows us to exit from the theater. once we exit from the theater, we are no longer part of that drama, and free of any emotional turbulence our roles in the drama had caused us. We need to find that door.
If you ask me how to find that door, I don’t know yet. I’m still searching for that door. What I have learned so far is to surrender and learn to believe the current moment is the perfect moment that the universe has arranged for me and believe the universe never make mistakes just as the sun always arises from the east and set on the west. So I am learning to accept and appreciate whatever happens in life regardless I like or not. Of course, I’m also learning not to like nor dislike because those are emotions belongs to this two-dimensional world as well with the limited vision of the entire karmic view.
If so, should we still be motivated on working hard or pursuing whatever our heart desire for? I don’t have an answer to that yet. My take on this is yes. Since all I have is now, or today, I focus on what makes me happy today, and what is on my plate today while I try to have a better understanding of life.
Serene Living with Divine Love 